Where to even begin?
I used to love my job, I looked forward to waking up and going in to the office every morning. Then I got promoted. Twice.
I have no clue what I’m doing for starters, and upper management doesn’t seem to have any desire to tell me what I should be doing. I feel like my job description is basically, “Do stuff, make things happen.”
That might be fine if I had a single overarching goal to focus on, but I don’t. I’m doing three jobs right now, four on some days. I’m working 60-70 hours a week, usually until 3:00 AM or 4:00 AM each day, and that’s still not enough to get everything done. My boss is breathing down my neck because stuff is getting dropped, and on the one hand I completely understand his frustration. On the other hand though, I’m like, “Really, man? I can only juggle so many balls before one gets dropped. You do realize that I’m only human, right?” Most days I’m fighting as hard as I possibly can not to fall asleep behind the wheel on my way to work.
I have no work-life balance. I wake up, go to work, work through lunch, come home, take a short nap to try and fight off the massive amount of consistent sleep deprivation I’m constantly dealing with, wake up again, work some more, go to sleep for the night and then repeat the whole thing the next day. I’ve tried to fit other things in to my schedule, but there’s really not any time for it.
I could maybe put up with all of that if I were just being well paid for the work I’m doing. Instead, I’m being paid ~$30,000 less than the average salary in my area for my lowest ranking job title. $50,000 if you compare my salary against my highest ranking job title. My roommate can barely cover his share of the bills so most months I have to spend extra just to keep from being evicted. I have almost no spare money, and sometimes I wonder if I’ll even have enough to eat every day. I’ve got $12 right now. All but the last $2 of that is going to go toward parking for a site-survey that I have to do myself despite the fact that the other project managers aren’t required to do their own site-surveys. My boss is making me do it myself because he’s pissed off for unrelated reasons.
I’ve got over a week of vacation saved up that I’m never going to get to used. As it is, I fully expect that I’ll be working through Thanksgiving, my sister’s wedding and Christmas.
There’s a competitor that’s been trying really hard to recruit me. They say that I’m being taken advantage of. They told me they can offer me an easier job with a higher salary. Every single day I consider giving them a call. Every single day I don’t because I feel like the rewards will eventually be better where I am. I’m tried of eventually. I’m tired in general. I feel like I’m literally working myself to death. I’m really considering accepting the other job, walking in to my boss’s office and saying, “Here’s paperwork showing how many hours I’m putting in every month and here’s my two-weeks notice. I wish I could say it’s been a pleasure to work with you.”