Salt Lake City, UT
She’s a boss a** bi*** bi*** bi*** bi*** bi*** bi*** bi***. Seriously though, I hate her. She did say something nice to me today, but I can’t help but feel like it’s required for her or that it’s a struggle. This goes further though. I hate my job because I can see the future. The woman who is my counterpart in another state routinely works 60+ hour weeks. I don’t think I’m paid enough to do that. I’d need at LEAST $100K to even consider it. I just don’t want to have that life. I have an opportunity to escape, but I’m so afraid to do it because it means that my income could/would drop significantly for the first year of my employment. There’s too much unknown. I just want to be successful. I don’t have much time. I’m also sometimes worried that I’m going to be canned. Honestly, they could find another person to do my job. I have a friend who would be good at it. He could theoretically take my job, and after one month, it would be like I was never there in the first place. I don’t want to be a bad worker or a lazy worker. It seems as though I’m more motivated before I go to bed to do a great job and really impress my boss, but then when I get up, I feel lazy, anxious, and annoyed. It’s like I just want to avoid work. But deep down, I really just want to be good at my job. I just hate going in, I hate what I do, and I hate my boss. I just want to be happy.